Ruled by numbers

My life seems ruled by numbers. CA125. Hemoglobin. Weight. Blood pressure. Don't really let LDL HDL rule me anymore. That is the lease of my concerns given my circumstances. I have to maintain enough weight so when I don't feel like eating I can sustain my hemoglobin and other blood count numbers and not need transfusions or have delays in treatment. Blood pressure - don't need a stroke while in the middle of all this. So far so good on that one. It is all a balancing act while we wait once again, on Monday, to do more blood work and get the results on Tuesday. Is the tamoxifen working? That will be the big question.