rough few days - second line chemo

Yesterday was supposed to start new chemo avastin and doxil but no such luck. Woke up with wicked migraine and some nausea. Pills not working. food not working. sat with another cancer patient for a while before I was supposed to start my treatment but didn't make it. got clammy, more nausea, could feel change in my blood pressure. usually in those times it drops, this time it was climbing and with high blood pressure can't be on avastin as it can cause high blood pressure. Instead, I ended up lying down on bench in hospital hallway, vomiting. a total nightmare. nurses as always were great. ended up in ER, getting ct scan of my head to make sure cancer had not metastisized to my brain, getting medication for the nausea and migraine via iv, and going to sleep until 5 p.m. coming home, sleeping more. today, did finally get the therapy. ironic how in my life even on my way out I am helping others and teaching. ended up connecting the chemo nurses at the hospital with the doxil cares program, regarding advice about icing while getting treatment, pre-treating and post-treating with ice etc. they said they wished all their patients were like me, but maybe not really. maybe just well-informed and educated, but certainly not ones relapsing like me. this was definitely different treatment. only about 15 minutes of pre-treatment with steroids. no benedryl or zofran. they aren't worried about nausea with this drug and many other side effects of carbo and taxol. just other skin type issues. we will keep icing and no hot liquids and see how this goes. will miss my soups.