ICING DEPRESSION

There are different types of depression. Situational. Clinical.  Manic.  Mine just relates to ice and icing and is as incurable as ovarian cancer.  Knowing that Sunday I have to start the icing routine of the professional patient on doxil, two and three times a day with my hands and feet on ice packs.  It is truly a catch 22.  If doxil stops working and I get to stop icing, then it means my options to stay alive are much more limited.  But if Doxil continues to work then I have to continue the icing.  In the summer it was somewhat refreshing, but in the polar vortex aftermath I am truly dreading it, my eighth treatment with my hands and feet skin peeling, my gums aching, ready to kill for a cup of steaming hot coffee or chocolate.  Too frustrating to describe, so instead I am in icing depression.