Subversive knitting

Sometimes we all think about our purpose in life.  Why am I here?  When I'm dead will anyone remember me?  Like everyone I ask these questions in my mind and consider my life.  In many ways it isn't the life I had planned, but it has been satisfying nonetheless.  Certainly since attending law school and working in the legal services clinic, I started a career of helping others with legal issues.  Most of my cases either private or public sector involved helping people who were being harmed by the system or by others, victims, sometimes of bullies (domestic violence, parental violence, hate crimes) or even insurance companies. ( I am someone who always roots for the under-dog and thoroughly despises bullies).  I know that in 22 years of working in the legal field I made a difference in people's lives.  As I always say, my life is really 2 degrees of separation, not six, knowing people who know people, and helping people who help people.  It is certainly true of my more than 25 years in recovery, as I help people who help others and so on.  People tell me that I am inspiring but truly I would rather be healthy than be so inspiring.  I think it is also true of my knitting, crocheting, needlepointing, all the work I've done over the years since I learned, as I made baby blankets, and big blankets, finished needlepoint started by others, or the sisterhood of the traveling scarf, these items have transited into people's lives.  Maybe they keep them.  Maybe they regift them.  Maybe they wear them or use them.  Maybe they sit in a closet or drawer.  But the reality is that these items are all over the world and in people's lives.  It isn't my intention to be subversive, but to spread happy and color.  But maybe it becomes subversive over time, like the concept of paying it forward.  My name and person will no longer be attached to the scarf or blanket, but it will still spread happy and bring color to people who never knew me, leaving a lasting mark around the world.