This is definitely not the way to lose weight

While I am not unhappy that I've lost so much weight due to this illness, surgery, loss of appetite etc, it would be so much nicer to be fat and healthy, or to say that yes I lost weight through diet and exercise, the right way. This is definitely not the good way, to get into clothes I haven't worn for a few years thanks to menopause. I could live without nausea, constipation, fatigue, etc. I could live without being declared disabled, knowing that my time may be very limited, that I have maybe a 35% chance of surviving 5 or more years. So many better things to do with my time and energy when I have it. Instead, I am stuck watching daytime television, (yes, 257 channels and nothing on) hanging with my dog (who is quite content) and worrying about my husband and son. Definitely not a way to live.