the heat in my bones

All through the long cold snowy winter, all I could think about was dreams of the summer, to sit outside in the heat.  Sun is not allowed due to the various chemicals in my body, and swimming is barred due to the abdominal drain, but here I am as very anemic, and always cold, something I've never experienced before, and just never able to get warm.  So I am truly enjoying the heat of the summer, trying to store the memories of warmth to get me through another winter, if possible.  As bit by bit I edge into uncharted or lightly charted territory.