The rest of my life

Is it rest? as in to rest, relax, do nothing?  Is the better word remainder?  what remains of my life?  So much has been taken away - my career, my hobbies, my energy, my ability to think clearly, my memory?  What remains?  My body in its depleted form, some of my creativity, and not much more.  I take each day as it comes, I prepare for the next form of chemo, and I wonder what to do with my days, what difference I can make with what is left.  I raise awareness of this disease each day, try to help others get through their days, and survive.  Not the life I planned, not the life I prefer but it's what I've got. I prefer not to sleep the days away.