Sick and tired

After 2 and 1/2 years I am sick and tired of being sick and tired.  I've decided to stop chemo until I feel better since the two drugs I've been offered have pretty awful side effects and not as effective as what I've been on.  I'm meeting with a new doc to see what he suggests and whether I can be accepted into a study.  I keep thinking there must be some alternative I don't know about, hasn't been presented to me.  I just need a new approach?  The fatigue is endless.  rarely leave the house anymore.

Gems please

So Gemzar it is instead of doxil.  I still would like a cure that comes with unlimited chocolate, especially chocolate cake but since the docs call it gemz, I will settle for diamonds or maybe sapphires with my chemo - please?

Teal up folks

Teal up - paint your toes/fingers in honor of ovarian cancer awareness month.  Still not enough research and knowledge about this disease.  Still no breakthrough drugs.  I still don't qualify for any trials.  So I paint my toes and hope.

Now what?

Doxil is no longer working so after yesterday's CT scan waiting to learn what new exquisite torture the doctors have in mind for me.  While it is a relief to no long worry about my skin, eating hot and spicy foods, drinking hot liquids (yes cappuccino you can come back to my life) black toe and finger nails etc, who knows what knew side effects I will have to manage in addition to the usual fatigue, nausea, headaches and so much more.  Oh joy.